New year

The truth is deep down inside me I know I'm wanting. Yearning for that person who will finally love and "save" me. I want to feel desired, cherished and yearned for. But behind those wantings are the fear.

I am afraid the get hurt, again. My desire for masochism and other martyr acts have already been exhausted. It is finally the time when I'm entitled for even a shred of hedonism.

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